I have just let out the breath I have been holding for the last 4 weeks. The financial stress and emotional roller coaster of my children's mental health issues has finally found a small respite. Money flowed into the resource column and the medication has been restored and balanced so right now we are on calm waters.
Kalenar got home from Delaware with a killer dragon tattoo and seems much more relaxed. I have enjoyed having James the dog around because he is a kindred spirit with me and it is funny because he does not like people taking him away from me when he is chilling so I kind of like that he has a possessive streak.
The only true activity this weekend was Karaoke night with work friends. This was on Saturday 09/19 at The Highlander and it was very fun. The coolest thing ever was that Gialdron went with me as my driver and he sang "One Week" by Barenaked Ladies and NAILED IT!!! COLD SOBER!!! The entire bar was on their feet at the end. I wish I had video of it. There is another video of me sing "Drunken Lullabies" but it is on Instagram so I will share the original one that is on YouTube and hope you enjoy until the next post. One last thing The Hunger & The Fight (Part 2) by The Mahones came out and it is amazing so please take the time to listen.
At this point I am writing the post as a defense mechanism for all of the stress the last 3 months have involved so please bear with me as I get to a point where my lifestyle is meshing again. This is not to say that I have not had great enjoyment over the period. A more accurate portrayal is that I have prioritized much needed time to blow off steam in the middle of a time frame of day to day survival.
Not much happened this weekend, on Friday I had a very good night of drinking and conversation with Lord Darksteel, Monsieur OneTrack, Bomba and Vladimyr. Gialdron was also there and he was in a relativity mellow mood (the calm before the storm.)
On Saturday, Gialdron had the beginning of a breakdown that has brought renewed pressure on our household and so we went into a holding pattern that allowed us to persevere and move forward. I am intentionally not going into details for this is not the purpose of this blog. Just know being a parent of an autistic adult who has an intrinsic paranoia against the Medical Field is very stressful. After I had meditated and found some measure of solace, I finished out the day by getting some Chinese food from Mulan and watching Lawrence of Arabia.
On Sunday we dealt with more aftermath and fallout from the day before but it was a far more productive day. We then moved into the week and I ask Odin to help have the wisdom to face these battles with the right measure of tactics and compassion.
Thursday 9/3 was Social Distortion and it was an AMAZING show but Gialdron was having a very hard Autism day and inside The Depot it can become stifling but a great show!!! I enjoyed both opening acts Drag the River and Nikki Lane and I even bought Nikki's CD. A Social D show was the same way I found out about Lindi Ortega and I have loved her music ever since so I have high hopes for Nikki Lane. Mr. Ness and company were awesome and I will never miss a show whenever they come close to where I am living.
Friday 9/4; I had the day off and dealt with financial issues for the month so that Kalenar could head off for his 2 week long trip to Delaware. When the day was done, I took a signature selfie and settled in for a long night of inebriation and Celtic Punk.
Saturday 9/5; I had to parent consequences for The Wee Dancer and waited all day for her to get her room cleaned and her laundry done and AARRGGGHHH!!!! Then Les Morgan came over with her thrall and we went to The Republican for a pint and a shot.
Sunday 9/6; I laid down the law and The Wee Dancer suffered the consequence of me getting angry. So all I did was watch Defiance, list CDs on E-bay and watch her CLEAN HER ROOM. Then Bomba came over and we drank beer and watched Anthony Bourdain's Layover series and the night went well.
Monday 9/7; we finished the cleaning and the laundry but I was visited by The Raven Queen (my mother) and forced to go through boxes of crap that she hoarded from my college years. I am very cross about this because it was not I who hoarded it and when I told her to throw it away she ended up bringing it to me. In addition she had an intense burning need to get the electrical short in the Jeep fixed so I dealt with her mania over that as well. The Wee Dancer and I saw Tomorrowland which I enjoyed. Lastly I dealt with a grand maul tantrum from Gialdron because he can't take control of his life. More on that issue later when I can process my thoughts but just know this Autism is a blessing and a curse and dealing with it my whole life with him has caused me to be very tired and at times I barely cling on to hope. On this note I will not leave you, instead I highly recommend you listen and watch this Foxy Shazam video for Oh Lord and feel good!!!
On Saturday, Gialdron had the beginning of a breakdown that has brought renewed pressure on our household and so we went into a holding pattern that allowed us to persevere and move forward. I am intentionally not going into details for this is not the purpose of this blog. Just know being a parent of an autistic adult who has an intrinsic paranoia against the Medical Field is very stressful. After I had meditated and found some measure of solace, I finished out the day by getting some Chinese food from Mulan and watching Lawrence of Arabia.
